Having had the big “C” in my life for 37 years I have seen the evolution of modern medicine in treatment and diagnosis. It’s still the same. One thing that I have learned through all my dealings with this disease is PATIENCE. Before my illness I was a man on the move; not standing still for anyone or anything. Then, I was sat down…BIG TIME. Realizing I had a choice of what to do with “all this time” on my hands, I chose to read my Bible,  and pray. It was a real test of patience !! My last convalescence lasted 7 years and is still continuing. The time I spent was fruitful. I now am the most patient person that I know. Yes I have times that I loose it, but those times are few and far between.

With the hand of God on me, I have been blessed with one of the greatest gifts….patience. With this new gift, I am able to wait, listen, and learn. It also helps me to help others (a great gift in itself). My ministry given to me by God, lets me help others in need. Without cancer in my life, I would be in in a different place. My happiness and peace would be diminished. My faith would be shallow. My joy would be superficial. Because of all of these pluses, I can look past my physical sufferings and give thanks to the Lord for His grace. Cancer is a blessing. How have you been blessed by your troubles?

Lord, every day the light of the sun opens my eyes.

Let me always awaken to it’s invitation

to celebrate new mercies.

Each day You give me

enables me to enjoy a new peace

that You grant to me.

You are my life, each moment is a lifetime.

May I never take for grated the blessings

You set before me.

Father God, help me to not want more than I need.

In my heart, I know that You provide all that

I am supposed to have, and in Your time,

I will find peace and happiness, not by which

I accumulate or buy.

My Lord, my Savior, I give thanks for You in my life.

When it rains, You provide me shelter.

In my times of trials, I am comforted by Your presence.

You hold me close in my painful struggles.

In my recovery from dire straits and health challenges,

You alone provide me wellness and happiness.

Let me serve Your will that You have set before me, so

others may see Your grace and believe.

In Jesus name I pray.

It is a hard gift to pass on. Many see it as a weakness; forgiving those who have trundled off the path of righteousness. It is truly the gift of righteous love. I wish to give this type of love more in my time here on earth, as it breed itself and grows exponentially throughout all who know it. As Jesus said, “Love one another as I have loved you.”

HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY MOM !! We will see each other again….LOVE YA

You are my Savior.

Shield my eyes,

plug my ears,

quiet my racing mind.

May I listen to Your speaking voice.

Dwell in Your purity.

Be an example of a believer.

It is our walk. Either we walk in humble reverence to our Creator, through the fires of our trials, faithfully knowing that His hand is on us, OR rebelliously ask for release from the trial that we are experiencing. God’s lessons are given to us daily. We often forget that He created heaven, an eternal place of bounty and peace where there is no sickness, want, or lack of purpose. He also created hell, an eternal place where there is no peace and eternal trials and pain.

The choices of how we deal with our lives are ours. Will we have trials that bring us to our knees? YES !! No one is exempt from His attempts to mold us. How will we react? It is inside of you to recognize your Creator, and with faith, walk the path that you are given. Again, choices.

How do we make choices that facilitate our growth with the Lord’s approval? Only through a RELATIONSHIP with God can we uncover His will for us. Not through church attendance, Bible reading, donating money to the church or other charitable causes, but through a “heart” for God can this be brought about. Prayer and spending time with Him is how we truly get to know Him. It is what he wants.

Our modern lives are lived at such a rapid pace, that often times our time with God is forgotten for days, weeks, months or for some, (may it never be) not at all. We busy ourselves with superficial goals that, at best have consumable transient wealth. the fruit of this focus passes us by without us even noticing. In the end, when our days here on earth are dwindling, we try to reach out to Him and seek that relationship that was ALWAYS available to us, but we were unwilling to surrender time to cultivate. I urge you today, if you haven’t already done so, to cultivate a new friend : God.

Father, as I arise in the morning, You are there.

Each step that I take, You are there.

Only You know my innermost thoughts and prayers.

You keep me sheltered, in the shade, from the blistering sun.

When it storms, You put a roof over my needy head.

All my steps are marked by Your presence.

In my feeble life I seek to serve You in Your goodness.

It is a debt that I could never pay, even if I lived

a hundred lives.

On my face I worship Your presence,

hoping that You will find favor in my offerings to

Your lovingkindness,

My strength declines, but I refuse

to wallow in despair.

There are many that do.

They have given up.

Their pain is too much.

They are resigned to helplessness.

May I reach out to them

with words of hope,

and deeds of love.